I held out my hands & asked where I could help & somebody grabbed me & pointed me towards the future & said, You've got your work cut out for you & I said, isn't there anything easier? & he laughed & said you could dig around in the past, but it's just busywork & that made perfect sense so I shrugged & started right where I was, along with everyone else
~StoryPeople
For everything you have missed, you have gained something else,
and for everything you gain, you lose something else.
~~Ralph Waldo Emerson
six days ago our sixteen year old son
returned home
from residential psychiatric treatment
again
two days ago his father and i called 911
and our son was arrested
today we formally file felony charges
and
for the safety of our younger sons
hope that
our son
will never return to his family
how does a mother crawl up from
the grave of this death
Looking back you realize that a very special person passed briefly through your life - and it was you.
It is not too late to find that person again.
~~Robert Brault
❤
Are you, like me, trying to grasp this?
When you are a bear of very little brain, and you think of things,
you find sometimes that a thing which seemed very thingish inside you
is quite different when it gets out into the open and has other people looking at it.
~Winnie the Pooh
❤
You see, it's this way,
when you are the mother of a child who lives with mental illness
for whom it is nearly impossible to control himself
you often envision him
on the streets
homeless
eating a pack of Lance crackers
and a can of cold beans
(if he were able to safely steal them)
sleeping in an abandoned railroad depot
shivering in a corner
while that last little part of his heart
dies
with yours
❧
we have to stop the stigma of mental illness
because my child's life
and others'
depend upon a society that understands
mental illness is not a choice
❧
He is gone from home again
for forever.
Please tell me forever has an end
except I know
it doesn't
really
❤
May the love hidden deep inside your heart find the love waiting in your dreams.
May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays.
I love you always,
Mom
*quote author unknown
